undecided

I don't really think I've ever been this undecided about anything. Usually I make up my mind and stick to it. But this, I'm constantly arranging and rearranging my thoughts. I tried to make pros and cons. I get angry, I get upset, I get lonely. I feel like if there's this much indecision then I shouldn't do it. It's so easy to think that way. I always do what I'm told; maybe because everyone's telling me not to, is why I want to?

Also, my mum is being a brat.