contortions

i'm so out of sorts lately. i just cannot get it together for some reason. it's driving me insane, i cannot get focused, i'm distracted by everything. there is so much muddle in my head i can barely remember my own name let alone what projects i have due at school, what i have to study for, what i'm doing on the weekend, who i have to call and rearrange things with, ARGGHH. i need to go for a good ride, get out on the cross-country course with soxy and rape some oxers. that's an awful expression isn't it? 'rape some oxers'. i should stop being so derro.